Here we are on the last day of the year! I want to close out the 2018 favorites series by talking through some of the personal goals I worked on this year. This one is more for me than for you, because I don’t usually take time to stop and celebrate progress I’ve made. May we all judge ourselves less and be proud of ourselves more in 2019, starting now!
Reconnected – I wrote a bit about reconnecting with old friends here, and it really has been one of the highlights of my year. I often think of the nightmares I had as a teenager about how scary other people seemed but how badly I wanted to be their friend at the same time. Friendships aren’t always easy, and sometimes I shy away from the friends who know me the best because I can be afraid of making mistakes and losing someone so valuable. The closer the friend, the bigger the risk, in my mind. Something to keep working on. I don’t use the word “blessed” much anymore, because I feel like it just sounds lame after #blessed became a thing. But in this case, I’ll make an exception. I’m very blessed to have the people in my life that I do.
Picked piano back up – Speaking of reconnecting with old friends, I started to play piano again. I played as a little girl up until graduating high school, when I stopped taking lessons or performing in recitals. In college, I would sneak into the music building practice rooms at night and play sometimes when I was sad or overwhelmed. I’ve been afraid to return to music for a variety of reasons, and I held myself back. This summer, it found its way back to me when the wonderful W bought me my very own piano. Not to play for someone else, but just for me.
Worked as an Enforcer for PAX Unplugged – This was a new experience for me since I’ve only ever attended conventions before, and I loved it. I think it’s my new favorite way to experience cons. I worked in the First Look area as part of the Demo Team, and while I was definitely nervous, everyone was friendly and helpful. The whole weekend was crazy in mostly good ways, and I’m so glad I did it.
Drove again for the first time in years – This one is something I plan on talking about in better detail sometime soon. I didn’t drive for about four years, and with the support of W and my doctors, I started driving rental cars (we don’t own a car) now and again over the course of the year! Driving has opened my world back up to what it was like when I drove in my early 20s: more time with friends and the ability to explore further outside our Philadelphia bubble.
Wrote a shit ton – I think you knew this one already! I’ve said this a few times on here, but getting into a self discipline of practicing enough to post something five times a week has been incredible for me. While it’s fun to receive feedback from you guys, I’m loving this space regardless of how many readers I have.
Didn’t cut my own hair at all – I’m extra happy about this! I also started having regular appointments with a hairstylist at a nice salon. While it’s not something we’ve always been able to afford, I’m grateful to be able to do it now. It might not seem like a big deal to not cut your own hair, but I wrote about OCD and my hair here.
Took a vacation and boarded the cats for the first time – Self explanatory! We had the best time, the cats did well at the vet while we were gone, and I can’t wait to go back. Maybe in 2019!
Opportunities to practice therapy skills – It’s easy to get discouraged when challenges come up or bad things happen. I’m learning to try to look at these situations as opportunities. This year, we dealt with serious illness in the family, hospital bills, mental health crisis, assault, and other stressful things. Just like everyone else, sometimes I don’t want to handle it well…I want to stay angry or sad or give up. It’s helpful to remind myself that I have choices. Opportunities everywhere!
Went to the dentist – I’m not proud of it, but I hadn’t been to the dentist for nine years before this year. The reasons were a combination of fear and worry about how much it might cost, but it was much easier than I thought it would be in the end. I’ve always been careful about brushing my teeth, so luckily I didn’t have any problems at all!
I hope you enjoyed my first ever annual favorites, and I wish the happiest of new years to you and yours!